Just an Update

Let me throw an update your way if you actually read this blog. If you have seen the last blog, you know that I need a win. Ive been looking around for work and I have been shut down worse than the Lions in 2008. I havent looked everywhere, but once you look at a bunch of places and get no phone calls, you tend to lose confidence. Me being the guy that never quits, I put more applications in and am still awaiting a phone call. I applied at a few places last week, and nothing so far. I just applied for a few more place today. Hopefully this cold streak is snapped and I get a win.

Maybe I will, maybe I wont. Fingers crossed.

I Need A Win

    I need a win people. I am getting desperate for a win. I havent even been to overtime in the year of 2011. The closest to a win Ive been this year is that I got a few job applications flying around town. Well to be honest, I only have 2 out of the many Ive turned in that actually have a chance at being something. There is Home Depot. A good friend from church works there, and has all of my information that he needs, and he said he will see what he can do. Its been a week and there hasnt been anything. Then there is Gamestop. My dream job. I am an addict video gamer and I am working on writing a few story lines for some video games, and being on how its been longer than a week since Ive turned in the application, its looking like Im not getting that job either. They hired a new girl and today was her first day. So there goes that option.
    The main reason Im looking for work is because I was a full time college student and I took out a student loan because the old college I went to ruined me financially. Halfway through my first semester, I needed help and my mom and I decided that it would be best to take out a $1,750 loan to help me for the year. Well, I ended up needed all of it. It was used to pay for my classes, put gas in the car to get me to and from class, and the necessary supplies I needed. After the semester was over, I registered for spring classes, and I couldnt attend due to car troubles and lack of funding. My grant still wasnt coming in, so I couldnt take spring or summer classes. I got a letter in the mail saying that I needed to pay back a $1,750 loan in payments of $50 a week.  I do work a little here and there, but its not enough to take care of the loan. I am the definition of part time. I work whenever my brother and his boss need me, and its only for a few hours a month.
    If you want to add on to the problems, my good friend Red pasted away two days ago. My old softball coach. One of my few really good friends. I dont have many of those due to a video game addiction and the vulgar form of comedy I provide when in big groups of people.
    Why not throw one more at you. I met this girl 3 years ago at a vacation bible school I was doing, and I started to like her. We fell out of connection for a good 2 years, and I finally ran into her at Walmart one night. I started to like her again after finding her on Facebook and getting her phone number. Well I wake up two days ago to find out that she played me like a hand of cards. She led me on and ended up dropping out and going to some other guy.
    Its been over five months since Ive had a win, and its looking like its going to be a longer wait. Every time it starts to look like my life is about to do a 180, it does a 360. I cant get out of this cold streak Im in. I fell to the bottom of a deep hole, and every time I grab an edge and pull myself up, something gets thrown into the hole and pushes me down farther. I need a win people. I need a win just as bad as Charlie Sheen.

You're My Boy Blue!

Life is too short man. Yesterday (May 3) was a rough day. I got off of work today to hear some horrible news. My good friend and my old softball coach Red Julian, who has been in the hospital battling for his life, was taken off the machines that were keeping him alive, and he pasted away a half hour after. One of my good friends and the man responsible for my career in softball is now gone. Me being a man of faith know he is in heaven watching down on me and the rest of us, but he is still gone from planet earth. He will always be in my heart and I will always think about the classic nickname we gave him. Our good friend Red was nicknamed Blue. Every time he did something awesome (which happened a lot) we yelled out, "You're my boy Blue." Red battled cancer and came out on top. After he won his battle with cancer, he wasnt feeling so great, but we all knew he would make it through. Even when he wasnt feeling so great, he went to a Prom Night for couples at church and him and is amazing wife Sandy won Prom King and Queen. His wife is a big part responsible for my life with Christ. If it wasnt for her, I would be a broken down blind man with no direction. My good friend Red will be greatly missed by me and my family. My brother, who also played for Red's softball team, will be wearing the initials RJ on his sleeve, and I will be wearing them on my arms, shoes, and under my eyes. We both will be holding him deeply in our hearts and wont ever forget the love and grace he has given to us and everyone he has had a relationship with. Saturday will be marked as an emotional night for the two of us and knowing this going in, We will be doing what we can to help our team make it to the next round of the playoffs.

Red, I know you are looking down now, and I know you know what I am typing here, so let me close with this. Fighting back tears as Im typing. You're my boy Blue. I love you and miss you already. I cant wait til I make it to heaven and play for the team up there. Save me a spot on the bench and save me a spot on the field. Your initials will be on my sleeve during every game, and you will always be in my heart. Again, I love and miss you. You're my boy Blue.